Posted: December 4, 2015 in Uncategorized

Feeling thankful –

From the ages of 12-35, my church family, my music, my belief was EVERYTHING. It encompassed friends, a support system, I was a desired musician and music director, and on and on.

But of all that sticks out the most in my life, was my very first pastor, Rev. William V. Thompson of the UPC church of Bristol, CT. He was like a father to me, taking me under his wings of leadership and really, just BELIEVING IN ME. I had been told by others in the very same church, that I would never be anything, I would amount to nothing. Hurtful, yes…but it only made me stronger. I went to Bible College on my own, paying/working my way through school, and becoming the first Pentecostal ‘salaried’ Music Director in Maryland. My wife, family and I traveled, teaching choir clinics, leading youth and family camp choirs, and also went with our host minister on invites, to assist with the music.

It was an interesting and fulfilling life at the time, all the while, I was dealing with my sexual orientation, and my gender dysphoria…a nameless feeling/experience I can remember from around 9-10 years of age.

I am a survivor. My psyche has been blessed with a layer of ‘feathers’, where the waters of hatred, hurtful words and deeds of others…seem to only last for a short time, rolling off me like water off a ducks back. I am able to get up and resume my growth, my evolution.

I am VERY human. I hurt, feel pain, weep, and wonder how humanity can be SO ‘evil’ at times, with absolutely no regard for others. But I also know the joy, the love, the friendship, the recovery, the peace, the tranquil moments I appreciate so much…that assures me of the reality, the beauty, the wonder that this life avails.

So ‘thank you’ to those who supported, loved, and believed in me. And thank you to those who meant me harm, for it only made me a stronger person today.

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Humans reach for the unreal, all the time. They are sold a bill of goods and it is passed down generation to generation. They enjoy the message of charlatans, as the lies ‘feel good’, and can make sense on a very base, childlike level.

Fables, legend, and characters, created and placed on the stage of life, but they never cast a shadow. Stories taught, humanistic examples of how to live via the injection of imaginary characters…heroes, traitors and the enemy alike. Traditions held and defended with human lives and human blood. Tradition.

Billions have a ‘faith’ they were indoctrinated into. Their ‘traditions’, those stories of legend and lore over time, have become actual history, and actual truths to them…no matter how impossible.

I believe it had reached epidemic proportions long ago…and is held to heart today.

Humanistic teachings are part of every society. Things that have nothing to do with the supernatural, but history and experience. Thousands of teachings that have been adopted by writers of heroes in fabrications within various religions…so, nothing new there.

Every experience within religion is experienced outside of it as well. Every day, people experience feelings, see things with no words that can justifiably describe it…feelings that transcend the average human experience, and all of that without appending imaginary beings to it, or giving credit to an imagined deity passed onto us via programming.

I’m not knocking your feelings or experiences…but know this:

There is NO need for religion or imagined personalities within lore, to be moral, good, or fulfilled. The concoction of ‘sin’ and an ‘afterlife’ steal from us, the unlimited essence of learning and living.

Anti Marriage Equality churches are now attacking LGBT friendly churches.

They’re assumed ‘Apostates’, so now they deserve no respect or freedom of belief?

This type of divisive exercise has been perfected within the practice of religion. These attacks are continued stains of hypocrisy and fundamentalist poison, and of course, they feel that their god is on their side biblically…which is the ULTIMATE threat to a civilized/progressive country. Emblazoned ignorance!

We have not seen the last of this insanity. Lives can and probably will be lost over the freedom of a marginalized minority in our country. We ALL should be celebrating…but that is far from the truth.

This type of belief system brings division of family, friends, companions, towns, cities, culture and the advancement of humanistic diversity and freedoms.

As a country, we have come through much, and not only survived, but have thrived. Fundamentalist churches are mere cults of human insanity, and we must free ourselves from it’s talons of hate and bigotry. False in the basic meaning of the word ‘Christian’, using their political prowess to infiltrate, claim and pollute our Constitution and our most esteemed attribute…freedom for all.


We All Matter

Posted: June 10, 2015 in Uncategorized

There are millions who think that transgender people are mentally ill. Marginalized people who are hookers, addicts, harmful, and irresponsible people, to be removed from the general population.

To those who ‘go there’ in their mind when hear transgender or transsexual, please realize these truths:

1. We are human, with feelings, dreams, and desires of love and a life of prosperity.
2. Many of us have spouses, and jobs.
3. We are tax-paying citizens.
4. We are educated.
5. We are in every type of employment and profession.
6. We have families.
7. We can be found in every religion.
8. We are found in every social and economic strata.
9. We are your family, acquaintances, parishioners, fellow soldiers, coworkers, girlfriend, boyfriend, spouse and lover.
10. We are here. We have ALWAYS been here.

What many see and what movies and law enforcement portray, are girls that have been thrown out of their homes, fired from their jobs, estranged from the very family and friends who loved them dearly BEFORE hearing the truth of their battle and experience. Forced to live in shelters and prostituting their bodies JUST TO SURVIVE.

So, before you think ill of someone, or feel justified in laughing or heckling at a fellow human that is struggling with this reality…STOP, THINK, and make a difference for the good of ALL.


Reach for Reality


I am one of 8 siblings from the loins of two beautiful people.  My parents were as loving and supportive as they knew how to be.  Times were different in the 40’s, 50’s, 60’s America…much more than today.  My elementary school, rural area (24-30 thousand pop.), was made up of a dying ‘Leave it to Beaver’ mentality that was quickly and forcibly experiencing social change.  We moved to a larger city, in which I attended Jr. High, and High School.  This was an upsetting awakening to the status quo.  The influx of lives of so many different, wonderful souls…made up of different ethnicities, colors, and culture.  The green grass of our known culture was being flooded with beautiful color…forever to change the landscape of our single cultural and social existence. 

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My oldest sister had started dating a handsome man, a talented man, involved in the sports…

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Ally’s Wager

Posted: May 12, 2014 in Uncategorized

I had gone to bed last night, and this thought, or my understanding of this thought, kept me awake until I could express it:


Equation breakdown:

RE (Reality) – Reality in the instance is referenced as a ‘constant’ across human experience.   Life, death, Earth, gravity, evolution, various life forms, elements, effects of nature, our solar system, galaxies and universe are al constants in the fact that they exist via our senses, science and experimentation.

FA (Fantasy) – The opposite of reality. Imagined or conjured up sequence fulfilling a psychological need; daydream or hallucination.

IM (Imagination) – Creative expression of thought, the faculty of imagining or forming mental images or concepts of what is not actually present to the senses.

EM (Emotions) – An effective state of consciousness in which joy, sorrow, fear, hate, or the like is experienced as distinguished from the cognitive and volitional states of consciousness.

IN (Intellect) – Capacity for thinking and acquiring knowledge, especially of a high or complex order; mental capacity.  Minds collectively, as a number of persons or the persons themselves.

YR (Your Reality) – A compilation of the above ‘elements’.

1 (One) – “One, is the loneliest number you will ever do.”  Lol!  No, One in this aspect is represented by the Individual, which is a distinct indivisible entity; a single organism capable of independent existence.


This equation was derived from my life experience and insight thereof.  I’ve often wondered (and still do), what makes someone think the way they do?  Is it upbringing, life experience, our reaction to situations and societies expectations or demands?  What makes a person find comfort in things that are not in RE (reality), but find solace in thing that are derived from FA (fantasy) or IM (imagination)?  Let’s discuss these terms.

Reality – Reality in it raw form is beautiful and wondrous all by itself.  Just look around…nature in all it’s splendor, from it’s babbling brooks, to it’s rich plains, to it’s mountain peaks to it’s mighty oceans, our planet and all it’s acquired life, is AMAZING!  Early humanity was not only fragile, but finite, inquisitive, and superstitious from it’s conception.  To fill the gaps of the unknown, mankind in it’s superstition, conceded and conceived the idea of a higher power that was in control…something that leads us to the next ‘element’ in the equation.

Fantasy – Early man it it’s ignorance, didn’t understand the natural movements of our planet, it’s volcanoes, tsunamis, earthquakes, droughts, flooding, and called on a fantasy…something or someone derived from ignorance, to span the gap of knowledge.  Man is extremely talented and imaginative, leading to our next element.

Imagination – Imagination is the offspring of Fantasy.  It’s a beautiful, artistic, musical way that the mind contrives both the beautiful and the most hideous creatures and imagined experiences…from gods and angels, to demons and hell; from fairies to unicorns, to gremlins and vampires.  Imagination is the beautiful creative expression of our mammalian experience.  Without our imaginations, dreams do not exist, all art forms stifled, hope seems empty, and aspirations quelled.   Imagination makes the seeming inanimate ‘come to life’.  It allows us to feel the sunshine on a rainy day, or the affections of the heart appear eminent.  To our knowledge, it is unique to humanity alone…which brings us to our next element.

Emotions – I cannot even imagine humanity without emotions.  Emotions are prompted by experiences. Reading, observing, assimilating, or just be subjected to them.  Sometimes we wish we couldn’t feel, when experiencing displeasing, destructive, or saddening situations; but during the good times we reap the reward of the positive emotions of love, elation, joy, laughter, contentment or achievement.  Although we cannot avoid emotions, we govern how we express them.  Our emotions dance with many partners, both in reality and fantasy, but to keep our feet on the ground intellectually, leads us to our next element.

Intellect – Our intellect should attempt to balance our thoughts and reactions which lends to the way we learn.  We all strive to make sense of situations and experiences in our lives.  Could I have avoided such-and-such, or ‘that worked’, and repeat the successful thought processes to bring a conscious reality to our lives.  Education and tutoring through friendships, institutions, media and social venues, help to hew out that footing we all desire within our inquisitive minds.  This is an area that is crucial when compiling the other parts to this equation.  Many do not entertain enough, this essential part of the equation, making the YR (your reality) a ‘less than’, more than an ‘equal to’.  The intellect part of the equation is a variable of many platforms.  To only utilize a friend’s word, or the words of one book or work, is to water down the experience of ‘your reality’.

I feel we must guard our minds.  Our thoughts are what really give life and meaning to our existence.  Do not find yourself cutting out parts of the equation, or you find yourself with a facade of human experience, having traded the real for fantasy…when our lives are a celebration of BOTH. 

Enjoy a more complete, enriched life experience!   It’s in your power.

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In the Middle Ages, various kings would cloak their own will with the supposed ‘will of God’.  Those who would not obey the King, Christian or otherwise, would be to commit treasonous sin.  The judgment could be imprisonment, banishment, or even death.  With this ‘divine right’, Kings could rule as they pleased, as they claimed they were appointed by God, and answered to God alone.  This kind of flawed, supervised rule goes on still today…but wrapped in other titles.  Priests, Rabbis, pastors, Popes, shamans, prophets, Ayatollahs, reverends and various supposed ‘holy men’ that claim to actually ‘hear’ from God, are still poisoned with the same human weakness today.  The ability to mold and shape groups of churches, temples, mosques and other holy places, affecting millions of individuals around the globe, shaping ideals that can be helpful or disastrous.

This type of leadership and dominance has been part of humanity since civilizations began.  It was a way to rule, a way to control the masses.  It gave indelible power to the ones that learned to wield it.  They could rule, sway, and bring judgment down on the innocent free-thinkers who would challenge their decisions…after all, the ‘Almighty’ of the times, was on his side.  Soon, the ‘sheeple’ would line up as commanded…this was surely NOT a democracy.

Today in our democracy, there are those voices ‘crying in the wilderness’ that would draw the people in, using the ‘authority of God and his Word’ to manipulate and tarnish the very freedoms and evolution of our society.  The ‘Will of God’ and the ‘Fear of God’ is used on a regular basis to ensure compliance, or as in the Middle Ages, banishment, apostasy, death and separation from this supposed God, the whole time wielding the ‘will of God’ through their own interpretation and misuse of humankind.  They have moved into government, where they can influence this democracy and once again, set up a system by which they will rule…all in the name of ‘God’.  A theocracy, wrapped in an American flag and worshipped as ‘freedom’, only to destroy the true freedoms we of every creed, race, and culture have enjoyed of late.

We have been very fortunate to be born here in the U.S.A., where free-thinking and diversity is not only encouraged, but celebrated.  Freedom of speech, freedom of religion, and separation of Church and State are paramount for our democracy.  Let’s not fall back into the rule of a Divine Authority mentality.